I was born in 1985 to wonderful parents and an amazing brother in Kerava Ahjo, Finland, in a beautiful green single-family house. After my brother was born, my mother was told she couldn't have any more children, but 13 years later, I appeared. It was meant for me to come into this world to do my own work, my own part.

My childhood was very rich. I received a lot of love, so much joy, and adults celebrating happily. I saw many different countries and got to pursue hobbies and play around. If I felt like it, I could eat dirt and have a few cookies on the side.

I was probably six years old when my parents divorced. I didn't see it as a traumatic experience. Somehow, even back then, I knew that my mom and dad couldn't be together, even though they didn't lack love for each other.

I just loved it when my dad had a bathtub, and I always got pastries when I was there. Haha, a child doesn't need much...

Adolescence came, and so did middle school. I was bullied, like many others probably were. It left me with shame inside for many years. When I was 14, someone even asked me, "Aren't you ashamed to be yourself?"

I didn't know what I was supposed to be ashamed of, but from that moment on, I began to feel ashamed.

The time came for me to confront the person who said those words to me. Not in a way where I would tell them, "You bullied me." We talked about life, I told my own story, and they told theirs. They shared how they had been bullied throughout their school years. My anger and fear towards the bully disappeared the moment I realized that they themselves had been in a lot of pain. They were struggling with themselves, with their own experiences, and it had been projected onto me.

That moment changed a lot. It showed me how we are all connected, how we all have our own paths. We should see each other as human beings without prejudice and show love to those who are suffering. Plutarch said 2,000 years ago, "It is foolish to take another's troubles on oneself." Let's focus on alternatives instead.

EVEN DEATH CAN BE BEAUTIFUL

I lost my own mother when I was 26 years old. She died of cancer. Oh, how difficult it was, I had never felt such a void inside me before. It felt like a part of my soul had been ripped away, and the pain seemed endless. However, it subsided, and in its place came the wonderful memories.

While my mother was in the hospital, I witnessed the love between my parents, and I am truly grateful for that. Even though both my mother and father had new partners, my father stayed by my mother's bedside for many moments. My father's partner also said that he should be there, by the mother of his children.

Oh, how I wish everyone could experience all that love and see the love that I have witnessed.

In 2010, a tough decade began. I lost my mother, followed by my grandparents and my father in a car accident in 2015. How grateful I am that the day before my father's death, we spent time together, laughing and being silly. When I left my father's side, I had never received such a powerful hug from him before. It felt so safe, and when I turned to look back, my dad radiated joy and smiled at me. Thank you for giving me that memory.

The time of sorrow began. All I could think was, 'Now I am alone, I have to manage, survive, be stronger!' I couldn't expect that the grief within me could change my entire personality, making me more angry, judgmental, and conditional. There was only one right way, the one I had read or felt was right, and no other options were considered.

That is narrow-minded and destructive to the mind and body.

BODY, MIND, COHERENCE, and CREATING A NEW SKIN

In 2019, I came across the book "Becoming Supernatural" by Joe Dispenza. I tried to read it, but it was difficult to progress. In that state of mind, I couldn't think that my behavior was somehow wrong; I always blamed others. However, the book planted a seed in me because for the next six months, I pondered my own behavior. In 2020, while in Thailand, I decided it was enough. I decided to change. I asked my husband and dear niece what they thought was a negative trait of mine. They hesitated to answer, reflecting on the past, knowing it might lead to a heated discussion, haha. But eventually, they said I was quite pushy. I knew it, and I was glad they told me.

From that day on, I began to change my behavior. I have read Joe's book six times now, and each time I discover something new.

Imagine how a small or big thing can change your internal course so that you start seeing and experiencing life as unfair or evil. Before that, everything was fine, and you were happy. But if the course turns for the worse, it's easy to continue along that path. Every morning when you wake up, you remember the same problems in your life and continue on that frequency for many years.

But that course can always be changed. We can always change. "People never change" is absolute nonsense.

Our neural network is amazing. When you start doing things differently than before, you no longer activate the same neural pathways but develop new ones. This way, you improve yourself and CHANGE.

When I started changing my habits in my life, I removed the words 'annoying,' 'busy,' and 'stressed' from my vocabulary. Whenever I was about to say any of these words, I stopped and thought, 'Is it really annoying me now? In the end, nothing was truly annoying me; it was just a way of speaking—an ANNOYING way of speaking. Haha.

I can't actually remember when I last said those three words. It's probably been a few years. Much better things replaced them.

I became genuinely interested in the human mind, brain, neural network, heart, and how it all connects with the external world. I read and listened to numerous studies and books on balancing and improving human health and well-being through the mind and emotions.

I used to be a person who frequently got sick or had a sore throat. And heaven forbid if someone close to me was sick! I was sure that within a couple of days, I would also fall ill. I was hypersensitive to fragrances, and I had many fears. For example, I was afraid that the roof of our house might collapse or a plane would crash into it, or that gluten could make me seriously ill.

I started understanding my own state of fear and its connection to my body. My cells don't know if I'm actually in a really dangerous moment where a lion is chasing me and wants to eat me, or if I'm just watching a horror movie. To my cells and body, it's all the same. What I think and feel, my body believes to be true. Every time I responded to fear in.

I haven't been sick since then. Even if I spend time with someone who has a cold, I don't think about it. I trust my body and believe it is strong and healthy. And it is.

Now let's go back to last year, the autumn of 2022, when I delved deeper into meditation and ways to cleanse the body and chakras. It has been researched and proven that by breathing in a certain way, you can activate the flow of cerebrospinal fluid from bottom to top and top to bottom. It has been proven that people have healed from various illnesses through this technique.

I always knew a little about chakras, but not enough. Then I read about the coherence studies conducted by the HeartMath Institute (HMI), and I thought, 'What is this? I want to try it!'

I started practicing meditation to cleanse my chakras. I went inside my body and focused on each energy center. I could feel them, feel the swirling and tingling sensations in those areas. But in some, I didn't feel anything, no matter how hard I tried. One of those was the sacral chakra. I concentrated and concentrated, and finally, I felt a small swirl and tingling. Suddenly, it felt like I had started up, like an old car that sputters and sputters until it finally starts with a puff of black smoke.

'If you can make yourself sick with your thoughts, can't you also heal yourself with your thoughts?'

For years, I had suppressed my dream of painting more. There was never enough time, always too much work, and my free time was spent on other things. I maybe painted one artwork per year. Often, the paintings just stood against the living room wall, and I thought, 'I don't have time now,' and instead, I sat on the couch watching Netflix. It took me two years to finish my artwork called 'HEAL.' TWO YEARS! And it wasn't even wall-sized.

But after the chakra cleansing, when I 'started up,' it felt like nothing could stop me anymore. Ideas came pouring in, I completed the 'HEAL' artwork, and I realized that my first collection of artworks would be a Chakra collection.

I started to understand who I was. I was the same Tiina who, as a little girl, told her father that she wanted to be a great artist, a painter, when she grew up. It was the early 1990s, and back then, you had to be REALLY famous to make a living from art. Or at least that's what my father told me.

I have reflected on my own life and come to the conclusion that what my father said left me with the assumption for many years that I wasn't a talented artist. Even though my father didn't really mean it that way, I understood it that way as a little girl. I felt that I wasn't good enough and that there was ALWAYS another artist who was better. But why compare myself to others? I now understand that there is no other Tiina in the world who creates art the way I do. Unless I've been cloned.

BE YOU GORGEOUS