MOVE

"Things have a tendency to fall into place." My mother's phrase that has been ingrained in me since childhood. Thank you, Mom!

Do you have a habit of worrying about things? Worrying about others' matters, your financial affairs, your own life, or fretting about something that's just a product of your imagination? Worrying to the point that you stay in one place, almost as if you're stuck in a hamster wheel of worries. I used to worry about things too – unnecessarily worrying, worrying about my life with so many limitations. Worrying to the extent that my body became blocked and rigid.

"Is there life after death? I'd rather ask, is there life before death?"

It's often said, "Just let go and things will get easier," but HOW? I feel that by worrying, I'm only amplifying my troubles. In the world, there's always good and bad, negatives and positives. Every sorrow comes with a lesson standing beside it; either you see it or close your eyes to it. You either learn from it or continue on the treadmill.

"Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." - Albert Einstein

In the spring of 2020, a new friend entered my and my husband's lives. That spring, I became aware of my own limitations and started seeing life differently, but of course, not everything changes in the blink of an eye. On a hot summer evening, our friend said: "Let's climb onto the roof of your garage because the evening sun is still shining there." I immediately declined because a) the ladder is really long and it might fall, and I could hit my head or break my leg, or even die, b) what if I fall, especially from the roof, c) the roof is hot, d) I wonder what the neighbors would think. 

Our friend said something like: "Tiina, now let go of those fears and enjoy life." I climbed the ladder onto the roof, we enjoyed the last rays of the sun, talked about life, laughed, and I was so grateful that we had this wonderful new adventurous friend, and I had climbed onto the roof. I let go of those mental delusions at that moment. 

That summer brought so much wonderful, new, and amazing things afterward!

High Vibrations and Lows

In January 2023, I drove to Mustio in Finland, along a wonderful fairytale-like forest road, to visit a shaman. I didn't know what to expect. I was just excited about something new. I ended up here because I had done a few tattoos for my shaman. There was a strong connection between us even before we met in person.

I create unique tattoos for my clients, but for some reason, I can't design the images until just a few days before the client's appointment. When I see the client's name on my calendar and start thinking about the tattoo, elements and symbols that the client hasn't even told me about begin to form in my mind. Nonetheless, I sketch these elements onto the design. In many cases, these things I've imagined have been in the client's mind or have happened/will happen in their life. People often wonder how I know. I don't know, I channel and sense. The same happened with my shaman, and our shared journey began.

The awaited unknown journey began. As I settled comfortably into a charming cottage where a crackling fireplace provided warmth, I didn't know what to expect. I was just excited about this new experience. The shaman first positioned me gently, allowing my body to stretch slowly, and then she began playing singing bowls on my body. We changed positions and the locations of the singing bowls – sometimes I heard high tones, and other times the sound of water, even bells. I floated high and light until it was time to move to the shamanic drum. When the drumming began, it felt as if a dark force was trying to pull me underground. It didn't feel pleasant; it felt heavy, and I started to feel the drum's power intensely in my heart. In my mind, I said to myself: "Let go, see what happens." In that instant, I plunged into the journey. I opened my eyes to the journey and saw a twilight blue-green forest ahead of me. The forest was beautifully covered in moss and tidy, with a lovely path winding through it. For a moment, I pondered my state of being; I didn't know if I was a human, a hunting animal, or a horned creature. I caught a glimpse of a deer beside me, and then suddenly, I started running. I ran fast through the forest, feeling every twist, stump, and branch. I knew no one could stop me. Soon, I arrived at a large clearing where I saw a massive bonfire. In front of the bonfire, I saw a primal woman dancing freely, wildly, and happily. I realized I was looking at myself. My journey concluded there, and I surrendered to the continuous drumming. 

At that moment, I understood that I had been holding myself back all along and wishing for someone or something to change the course of my life. But it all starts from within me, my own movement, my belief in myself, and my willpower. Everything we need is already within us; as we move, the entire universe moves with us, and we release ourselves from chains. 

And thus, Move was born.